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Saturday, June 3rd, 2006
11:19 am	Start of a great summer! It is just one of those times when you just wanna be crazy and be yourself and not care what anyone else thinks of you. I have alot going for ahead of me and have had alot happen in the last 6 weeks that has just been great. I am attending a trip down to Gulfport, MS for 7 days with my church youth group to help out with Hurrican Katrina Relief effort. I am so excited to go down there and help out any way I can. You have no idea. I never knew a smile could tell so much about how a person feels or even give away what a person is thinking about. A few days ago I just could not stop smiling back in electronics. Charlie knew exactly what the smile was for. I met this girl April 25th (on her birthday). She was going to drive home and she has been drinking alot and I wouldnt allow her to because I couldnt let her get a DUI or even worse, and deathly accident. So I took her back and her friends drove her car. Well, we have been talking ever since then, actually we are more than just talking, I guess she is now my girlfriend. Let me tell you how great she is. I am being very careful with this one because of the last few relationships I have had have a hurt too much. But this one is just so great that its scary how "perfect" it is. So far I would give my summer 8 out of 10 stars Current Mood: giddy Current Music: "What You Know" by T.I. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
9:31 pm	Go Target Boy go! I just love going to work on mondays for some reason. I always have great mondays. I went to work today and just had the biggest smiles on my face every now and then. It was great! I dont think I have been this happy in so long and its a great feeling to be happy, well duh! Current Mood: loved Current Music: "Break Away" Kelly Clarkson (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
4:39 pm	U know what I just hate it when people lead you on and then just blow you off. It just really pisses me off and most off all it really hurts. Whatever, Im getting over it anyways and have been meeting people and going to the bars with my friends so its all good for the time being. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: "What hurts the most" Rascal Flatts (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 16th, 2006
8:12 pm	Take the Vow Can't really explain the mood I am in right now. It's like I am very happy but at the same time there is this side that wants to be sad or depressed. I know I am not depressed, well maybe just a little bit. This past weekend was alot of fun. It really started Thursday night when Kyle, Trevor, and JP came over to Lindsay's house on Pleasant Lake. We all had our drinks and just had a good time talking and whatnot. Then Friday came along. Friday was an amazing day except for few other things that went on that night. I went tanning, got a phone call from my friend Kathleen in Alabama, and got ready for the Hawaiian party. I ordered my Kenny Chesney style cowboy hat for the party and also went to Target to get these amazing Corona flip flops and very nice orange flower board shorts. I wore that cowboy hat most of the night, except for when I went for a dive three times in the lake. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... Woke up saturday morning went to work After work I went back to Lindsay's to get my cell phone back. I made a few calls and ended up at Rams Horn with Jenn, Amy and Karie. It was really good to see Jenn and Amy again. It was funny that Karie told me that Rams Horn was a non smoking establishment after what we all went through a few months ago, Jenn you know what I am talking about, lol... anyways Church today was great! The service was amazing! I went with Karie and her mom and dad and matt today. It was really nice to see her mom and dad again and just to be at church. For the first time in a long time, I really enjoyed being at church and listening to the pastor preach, hearing the people sing, and most of all, feeling the presence of Him. I loved it! When I heard "Shout to the Lord" I caught myself starting to sing along and of course I stopped. I also got a little teary eyed during parts of the service. Alot went through my head while sitting there at church today. I felt alot of my past flash before my eyes which really started to make me think. I started thinking about how my life has been the past few years and what I have been missing out on. I have been making alot of really stupid stupid STUPID misaktes and decsions. I DO NOT regret from them but I will and am learning from them. What has really been going through my mind the most today has been my love for Him. I used to be so involved with my youth group and that all changed when I went away to Western. In the next few days I will be posting a few vows that I will be making and it will start off with this one right here.... 1) The Third of the Ten Commandments reads "Remember the Sabbath day to keep it holy." To keep this day holy we must fear and love God, which is how we are able to keep the Third Commandment. We must set one day a week, the Lord's day, apart from the other days of the week and make that a day of worshiping our God. How am I going to accept this vow? I am going to start off by attending church service at least two times a month. I know that I can accomplish this because it is not too much to ask for to go to spend 4 hours out of my life to honor and love God. Book of John Chapter 13 verses 1 - 17 It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come fro him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love. The evening meal was being served, and the devil had already prompter Judas Iscariot, son of Simon, to betray Jesus. Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples feet, drying them with the towel that wrapped around him. He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, "Lord, are going to wash my feet?" Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." "No," said Peter, "you shall never wash my feet." Jesus answered, "Unless I wash you, you have no part with me." "Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!" Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean. When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. "Do you understand what I have done for you?" he asked them. "You call me 'Teacher' and 'Lord,' and rightly so, for that is what I am. Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should was one another's feet. I have set you and example that you should do as I have done for you. I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them." Thank You Current Mood: thankful Current Music: "I Want to Know You More" Sonic Flood (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
8:00 pm	Good Times I bought new Rascal Flatts CD last Tuesday when it was released and the CD is AMAZING! There is this one song I have been listening to alot that reminds me of someone right now and it just wont get out of my head. I give this song to you! My Wish - Rascal Flatts I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow, and each road leads you where you want to go, and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. And if one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window, if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile, More then anything, more then anything, My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it, to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more then you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish. I hope you never look back, but ya never forget, all the ones who love you, in the place you left, I hope you always forgive, and you never regret, and you help somebody every chance you get, Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake, and you always give more then you take. Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything, My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it, to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more then you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish. I was bored online and couldnt sleep so I started looking at old journal entries and reading the ones I have posted as well as other people. It was so nice reading some of those posts because there were things in there that I didnt really forget about but it just reading it again to remember. Like the time I went to downtown detroit and ate at Fuddruckers and shared a burger while watching the boats float by on the river. The good old times huh. Another one my favorties was when I went to Kalamazoo and went to Bilbos with Karie and Lindsay. All I have to say is WHAT A NIGHT!!!! Well its my cue to get going since I am listening to My Wish again. Ill leave ya with.. . . . . . . . . My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it, to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more then you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish. . . . . Sorry but I just really miss someone right now and i really need to see her to make this all better!! . . . . I cant wait for this summer!!!! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "My Wish" Rascal Flatts (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
8:21 pm	Kalamazoo So I was talking to Chelsea today during my lunch break about kalamazoo and realized that I miss it so much up over there. I really miss the summer's I've spent in the frat house. I miss the boating and trips to South Haven. I miss the feeling of it all. I really want to go back there sometime but my problem is that everyone is gone. Pawel is in Texas right now and he is the one I always stay with. Man I miss those times walking from the bar back to his house. Hopefully I will go back to Kalamazoo next year and finish what I started. I miss you KAZOO!!!! Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "No Shoes, No shirt, No Problems" Kenny Chesney (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
12:54 am	Drunk driving I just drove home drunk Current Mood: drunk Current Music: "What hurts the most" Rascal Flatts (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
8:28 am	It's 8:30am on this cloudy saturday morning and woke up in the weirdest mood. It was weird because I walked around thinking why am I here, what am I here for, is there a point to my life right now? Everything around me was weird. This has been like this for the past two weeks and dont know whats happening with me. Everything has been so confusing lately and in a way, it feels like I dont know my purpose to be here. Yes, I am missing someone right now and maybe that is the reason I am feeling this way but it shouldnt bother me. I walked into work last monday after having a great weekend and all the team members I work with were commenting how they havent ever seen me this happy before. As the week came to end, it seems as that happiness faded away more and more. I dont want to feel this way someone help me out here Whats going on peace Current Mood: confused Current Music: "Because of You" Kelly Clarkston (3 Comments |Comment on this)
8:24 am	Meltdown So I went to see Ice Age II: The Meltdown last night and loved it! I especially love Sid and how stupid he is in the movie. I think I might go back to see it again sometime in the next few weeks. I cant wait until the month of may. There are going to be so many great movies coming out like X-Men III, Mission Impossible III, and Pirates of the Carribean. Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 26th, 2006
7:15 pm	Freaky Fun Fridays What a great weekend especially thursday and friday nights. The new year started off horrible and it just seems that the closer summer gets, the better everything is getting. My truck is almost complete. I can not wait until it complete so I can go back on the trails again. I love getting down and dirrty in the mudd. Work is going alright too. I have been very busy lately with trying to catch "The PSP Theif" and getting him thrown in jail. Other than that, I am trying to step up more and act as a team leader. I would love to be seen as a specialist who can always be there in replacement of a team leader if neccessary or more. Well this weekend was awesome! Another amazing weekend. Ever since my weekend skiing with Danielle, every weekend after that has been just getting better and better. First I went skiing at Nubs Nob which was AMAZING! Then my next weeekend rotation was my birthday weekend. That weeekend was also AMAZING because all my friends threw a surprise party at gameworks where I had the time of my life. And then I had this past weekend. I had the best time of my life. I am so glad to have soo many good friends. Ever have that feeling inside when everything seems so perfect? Thats how it feels right now. In a way my life feels complete after this past weekend. I dont know why? I had a few surprises one of them occurred at 10:15pm at Target. And then again later that night. I duno, I just couldnt be happier right now. You should see the work of art Karie drew on me, haha I do not remember what is going on here. I think Bret was writing on her and I dont know what I was doing Once it hits your lips its just so good! Thanks for everything :-) Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "Im In Love With A Stripper" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 24th, 2006
2:15 am	I had sex with a cucumber because thats how I roll No I really didnt, I just wanted to get ya'lls attention haha.... Did it work? So yeah, I woke up this morning feeling sick. My throat it all sore, I started to cough up crap from my lungs and I have this slight cough. Work was going alright today, kinda busy day and couldnt wait till the night was over since I had the next three days off work. I have this huge graffiti party friday night and I am so excited. Ok ADD is kicking in. So I get this phone call from Lindsay while at work and I never ever answer my phone while on the clock but I was in the fixture room so i thought just this once I would answer. She told me to come to the front doors. I was like wtf! I thought something was wrong so I darted over there. Well the one time I actually answered my phone, I was so glad I did because standing there next to her was a surprise and it really made my night. I was so excited to see Karie again since I havent seen her in so long. I couldnt believe my eyes. My night went from a emotional low to a emotional high just in the matter of seconds. Karie's 20th Bday Party at her house Lindsay, you seriously give me the best surprises I guy could ask for. Ok, so I downed some nightquil so I am kinda tipsy and going to sleep with the biggest smile on my face in a long time!!! sweet dreams Current Mood: excited Current Music: "Dont Cha" Pussy Cat Dolls (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 12th, 2006
8:59 pm	Im Giving on Love because Loves Giving Up on Me CAN I JUST SAY HOW PISSED and DEPRESSED I AM RIGHT NOW AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN MAKE IT BETTER! I fucked up my truck's distributor really bad and will probably have to buy a new now. My arm fucking hurts. I saw my dying grandma today. I was forgotton about or stood up today! WHAT THE FUCK YALL Current Mood: pissed off (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 4th, 2006
11:47 pm	My Worst Fear It is just one of those times when you start off from a fresh start and then at the end, it just feels better. But then the next day, something happens and you feel like the world is going to end. That is probably not the best way to relate what happend to me last night to tonight but I think its pretty darn close. My worst fear in life is rejection especialy when its from something or someone. I tried something new last night. It was something that I havent done since August 2005. It was to get together with a girl and go out on a date or just to go out. I havent done this in like 6 months because my heart has been scared for so many months. So I said what the hell, lets give it a try. Well, this girl I met up last night came to my moms. We chilled there for a bit and then went out to eat. I dont know whether to call a date. It was nice and she was very nice. I dont think I have met a girl so nice in so long. It was nice for a change to actually meet someone who I felt comfortable around. I am not gona lie, I was nervous as hell. I think I talked her head off. I wasnt really interested until that moment she had to leave. I felt very empty inside like something great was leaving. I dont know why I felt that way. Enough rambling... I called her last night to make sure her friend was alright and just to chat. I didnt hear back at all until I got home and saw I had a new email. I read it and sure enough I saw my worst fear tonight. I really dont know why I felt this way over someone I havent really even known that long. I thought there was a slight connection but aparently there wasnt. I am soon to be 23, single with brown hair, blue/green/yellow eyes. Will someone go out on a date with me? Current Mood: depressed Current Music: "My Worst Fear" Rascal Flatts (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
2:06 am	HELP ME Let me hold you, girl caress my body Im drunk lalalala lalala TUNIT!!! BEER GOGGLES!! Who wants to go up north march 10th-12th and split a hotel room very ccheap??? It's my 23rd bday and want to do something fun. will somebody scratch my back, it really itches BNAD!! Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: "Turn Me On" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
10:15 am	HAPPY MARCH!!! So it is 9 days until I turn twenty three years old. I know I am still young but I feel like each year, im getting alot older and wiser. Being home has helped out alot. It is nice to see my mom alot because when I was in high school, I lived with my dad so I never got to see my mom. I see ehr everyday now and I love it! In case none of yall knew, I have had a new nickname at work for a while now. They all call my e-D@ve. Of course the "e" is for electronics. I dont think I have ever had a better job than this one. It is so nice to be able to wake up and want to go to work. I havent had a job like that in so long. We also have a "group" called T-UNIT! I have been working on my 1988 Chevy S10 the past few weeks. I am learning so much with taking apart my engine and might be planning on going into automotive mechanics at OCC. I put a few pics up of my truck. Things have been going great lately. My weekend trip was to Charlevoix with my friend Danielle. We had so much fun and it was so nice to get up north again to go skiing. I missed skiing so much. I would love to get out one more time before the conditions get any worse. I was planning on going up for my bday but I dont think I can get anyone to go with me. We would even have to go skiing. Just to be up north would be freaking amazing!! Overall, things have been great! Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: "Something More" Sugarland (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 24th, 2006
6:35 am	Heavy Snow Warning Well it is 6:28am on Friday morning and in 11 hours I will be on the road heading up north with my friend Danielle from youth group. I am so freaking excited. I just looked at the weather forecast and there is a heavy snow warning tonight until early tomorrow morning with accumulations of up to 10 inches of SNOW! I am so stoked. We are planning on getting in around 10:30p and staying at the Lodge in downtown Charlevoix. Saturday, we will be skiing at Boyne for the entire day. Well I have to finish my packing! ps - I have my old phone back but I am missing about 90% of all my phonebook. IF you could please mail me your numbers to me so I can get a hold of you, that would be awesome. If I dont get a response, I see that your too good for me, no jk!!! If I dont even have your number and just want to give it to me anyways, go right ahead! THANKS EVERYONE e-D@ve Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "Hey Ya" Outkast (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
11:58 pm	Washed my cell phone I have my old phone back but I am missing about 90% of all my phonebook. IF you could please mail me your numbers to me so I can get a hold of you, that would be awesome. If I dont get a response, I see that your too good for me, no jk!!! If I dont even have your number and just want to give it to me anyways, go right ahead! THANKS EVERYONE Dave Current Mood: crazy (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
11:02 am	Valentines Day Sucks! Like always I never have a good valentines day. I had fun with Mike and Kyle at Gameworks but wished that it could have been spend with someone I really care about. Anwyays, I have been working full time on my truck lately. I added a few pictures so you can see what I have done to it so far. All that I have to say about that is, I hope I can put it all back together. haha. I know I will be able to. I am still thinking about that certain someone but dont have the ballz to go up and ask if I can take her out sometime. I dont know if its because I am afraid of being rejected of if its becuase I am afriad to get back into a relationship. Today is a crappy day outside! Current Mood: busy Current Music: "Rock Your Body" Ferry Corsten (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
11:47 am	101.3 degress.... Went to bed last night with a fever of 101.3 degrees. I did not sleep very much since I was so hot. This past week has been a strugle with having this virus, calling off work, trying to figure out taxes, and being very secluded. I just wish I was the fairy godmother and could use my wand to change all my obsticles im running into right now. Work has been going great! I am now officially a part of "T-Unit" at work, who includes Kyle, Mike, and Trevor. We are actually going to take it even farther and make nice hoodies with our name and number on the back. Fun times huh? On to the family! Things at my moms are amazing! I can do whatever I want. Have over who ever want whenever I want. Basically, my mom tells me that its my house too! NOT THAT THIS HAS HAPPENED but she even said if I had a friend over (even girl) they could spend the night. I love my mom. Daddy is doing better from what I hear. He is now working out at a health club. I dont think he is drinking as much anymore since the health club took out alot of his time that he could be drinking. Curtis has been talking shit about my family and from what I hear he even talked shit about my grandmother since "My dad is he offspring". What a load of shit. Lea is going away to the peace corps very soon, figures. If I had my old room back I might have stayed at the house. I could live in that room, not that I dont like being at my moms. Other than that stuff, I have been single since august, which I am not complaining about. I actually like being single but at the same time, I am turning 23 years old in less than a month and I asked myself if I will ever be able to a relationship that will last. A few months ago, I met this girl right? We have been out a few times, nothing special. Well, about three weeks ago, feelings started changing a little bit inside. Not for the bad. My worst fear in life is rejection and I am afraid that I get rejected and if that happens, I just feel I will be hopelessly lost forever with love. So I dont know what to really do. Shes smart, funny, beautiful, I respect her alot and her decisions. I know that a girl like her in my life could help me out all together. Well thats whats been going on for the last few months. The new started out kind of on the shitty side but I know things will get better in the next few months. Current Mood: sick (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
12:41 pm	Its been a while WOW, I cant even remember the last time I was on this thing. I think it was new years eve or day that I was on this. I have soo much to say so I will do this day by day since I dont have much time. Lately, I have been very busy. A few weeks ago I went to the Auto Show three times in one week. I loved it! I had a great time there and took lots of pics. Can I say how much I loved being down in Detroit? I know everyone hates there and feels unsafe but I love it down there. I have soo much time down there the past month. I have been going to the bars alot lately, probably a little too much. I just feel at home when I am there with all my friends. I dont drink to get drunk but I do drink. I am glad that I limit myself so I know I will be able to drive home alright. Now I know that I said I have alot to write about but I have to get ready for work so tune in tomorrow for some more info about what has been going on in my life, thats if you are actually interested. Till then, peace out! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "As The Rush Comes" DJ Tiesto (1 Comment |Comment on this)